I felt ok until we went to Church and sang the song "Away In A Manger" it talks about how peaceful and beautiful Christ was. I couldn't help but remember how peaceful of a baby Drew was! He was always so content..a stark contrast from his sister! It felt like a deep hole was ripped into my soul. I long for his sweet spirit and beautiful eyes. It keeps getting harder and requires more and more out of me to maintain a somewhat normal life.
But I do know one thing...I love the Lord! Without the daily reassurance that I will be with my baby again is what pushes me through this life. At moments when I wish Drew was here to share wonderful family moments with I think to myself "I can't wait to hear his stories..they will be much better than mine!"
I love Alexis' smile. I was thinking of you. I wanted to send you a poem via email but realize that I don't have your address.
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